I am so sorry for your loss. Grief is a hard road and you can't rush it, just process the changes and the loss at your own rate, in your own time. I was in a grief support group through a local hospital and it helped a lot. You can probably also find one online.
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Please be good to yourself, despite what people around you might think or say.
Best wishes,
Rosie